Half My Life In Love

I met a girl in HS in 1990 that I was totaly smitten(obsessed) with. Became semi-friends with her, but alas she was not interested in me. It physically hurt thinking about her, I just could not get her out of my mind. Not to mention that having teenage hormones at the same time did not help. Six years of hell till we graduated. It took YEARS to get to a point where I could go without thinking of her.

Then I ran into her one day at a store and BAM! Felt like a jackhammer hit my chest, all the old feelings came flooding back (FUCK!), we chatted and exchanged emails. I shoot her a happy birthday once a year, and on a rare blue moon chat with her. This wasn’t so bad because of how rare it was, but then I ran into her sister a few years ago in college and we became good friends. Its weird because her sister and I get along like two peas in a pod and if she wasn’t already dating someone (and wasn’t living far away) I think we might have dated. Which would have been REALLY awkward with the feelings I have for HER sister.

The feelings have never went away, they are still there, waiting for the chance to jump up to the surface and torment me. I hate we cannot control who we fall for, I would cut out these feeling with a knife if I could.