No Other Girl Made Me Felt This Way

I am 22, and i have been in love with a girl since 9th grade. I haven’t seen her since I graduated. I do not have despair that I will never be with her, I don’t hold any hope of being with her eventually. I just think of her and feel good and warm, bubbly and relaxed. I simply love her.

And she wasn’t anywhere near a perfect person. For one thing she had low self-esteem, and has since then become very overweight. I still love her.

There have been girls since her which I like a lot, which challenge me, and which I work with as a friend better than I probably ever would have with her. But I get no butterflies in my stomach over them. Never felt about anyone again the feeling I have for her. I don’t assume I will never in the future, but i suspect as much just because the feeling was new and intense, and i’m guessing it is kind of like a chasing the high scenario, but in any event, i’m not going to go the rest of my life looking for that same feeling, i’m just gonna settle for next best.